Surprisingly Calm

I have noticed that ever since the last group of referrals arrived that I have been remarkably, and uncharacteristically, calm. Ever since January, when March LIDs began receiving referrals, I have been very anxious, excited, nervous, etc. Now that I am so close, I would have thought I would be climbing walls as I wait for referrals. Especially since I'm not really even sure when they are going to come. But, surprisingly, I'm not. I'm not sure if it is because the thought of being next hasn't sunk in, or if it's just that knowing that we are next gives me some sort of calm that I can finally see that light at the end of the tunnel. I have also started to practice yoga again, which is also probably helping as well. Whatever it is, I am glad that I am worrying less and can actually enjoy these last couple weeks as I prepare myself for motherhood.

It's Official... WE ARE NEXT!!!!

Well, the stork landed today, and as rumored, the cutoff was 3/14. So, there is a very, very good (99%) chance that we are next! Not really sure when to expect referrals, but at least I will only have to go through this one last time.

I have to admit that I don't think all of this has actually set in yet. I keep saying, and typing, "We are Next!", but it just seems so surreal. I guess after waiting for 3 years, I just can't believe that this is actually going to happen. I think even Brian is beginning to feel the realness of this all.

We are definitely excited, and maybe a little concerned that Brian will not be able to finish the toy box in time for her to come home. But I suppose if I coax and help, maybe we can get that done.

I'm sure that this will sink in soon, and I will just have to make it through the next few weeks... sanity intact. I guess I made it 38 months already... so what's another couple weeks right?

Until next time....

May Referrals are FINALLY on the way

In case some of you thought I broke my promise to update referral info... I promise I didn't. May referrals are very, very late due to the Swine Flu, or H1N1 Influenza if you want to be official. The CCAA didn't officially say that referrals were held due to the flu, but that is the unofficial word. In any case... I was frustrated, angry, sad, and just plain discouraged when the news broke about referrals being held. And poor Brian had to live with me. Anyway... we finally heard some rumors this week that referrals are on the way, and our agency is expecting to get a package, that they think is referrals, tomorrow afternoon. They don't have an official cutoff date, but most of the rumors are saying that it is 3/14. I'm not too disappointed because I wasn't even sure if they would get that far, and they did. What's really exciting, and I'm still not quite used to saying it, is that WE ARE NEXT! There is only one day left before ours, so I think it is finally safe to believe that we will get our referral in the next bunch of referrals.

Now, the real irony is that my next question is When?. In most "normal" months, you can pretty much bet that referrals will be at the end of one month, or the beginning of the next. Since the May referrals were so late arriving, it really makes the when question a little trickier.

Scenario 1: The referrals arriving tomorrow were matched before the Swine Flu pandemic, and the CCAA is working on matching families with babies that will be sent at the beginning of June.

Scenario 2: Due to the delay, the next group of referrals will not be sent until about 30 days from now.

Scenario 3: May will be considered skipped and the next referrals will not arrive until July.

Needless to say, we are pulling for one, but of course, I have no real idea of when to expect our referral. I truly would have thought I would know something a little more definitive when I got this close, and FINALLY provide a good idea of when. But I still can't. I guess this thing really will keep us guessing to the very end! Oh well, I guess I've made it 38 months... what is another few weeks right?!